My sweet little baby!  / Meme (Grandma)
How do we keep going on?  Tears of saddness everyday.  I can look and my daughter and tell she is hurting so deeply.  I know she is because I am too.  We don't have to talk about it we know the feeling we all feel it.  The pain is so deep that you can't even imagine.  As I watch the first snow of winter it brings tears to my eyes just thinking about Kamdyn and the fun we would have had.  Watching him walk in his first big snow, throwing his first snowball, eating the snow all the fun things children do when it snows.  It's been taken from me and my family. 

As Lee and I drive down the highway to go eat I reached over to turn the radio on the station that is playing Christmas music all the time.  I am listening to the songs and find myself crying. I reach over and turn off the radio, I can't listen to it!  I don't even have to say any thing he knows whats wrong.  Christmas has always been a special time of the year for me, ALWAYS!  Now one of the things that I enjoyed the most, listening to the Christmas music, just breaks my heart.  I can see Kamdyn setting and unwrapping his presents and talking every second never shutting up.  I can see him getting a new car, truck or motorcycle toy and smiling so big!  

I know as time goes by this is suppose to get easier, I ask myself how will it get easier.  It's not it's gotten harder and everyday harder.  I miss him so much!  Just to hold him and tell him how much he his loved and missed.  Just one more time.  Why did this have to happen to my family, my daughters, me, and our Kamdyn?  

Bubby you don't know how much you are loved and missed.  It really sucks here on earth without you here.  You made me smile, laugh, feel proud, have something to look forward to, you just gave everyone lots of reasons to be happy.  I am sending you lots of kisses and hugs and a big squeeze!  I love you and miss you so much.  I think of you every single day!  I cry for you every single day!  I ask WHY every single day!  And every single day that goes by I still don't have an answer!  Well I have an answer I guess I just can't except it yet and I don't know if the day will ever come that I can!  Daddy watch him for me I know you are loving every second spending time with your great grandson.  I know that he is with you and he could not be with a better person than you.  I miss you so much too.  I do know that 2 people that are so very dear to me are together in Heaven.  I can't wait for the day I go there to be with them and get my hugs!  I just don't know why they had to go so soon!  God please help us, bring peace to our family, comfort my family and help us see thru this.  We know we can't do it alone.  Help us understand the departing of our loved ones.  Help me.  Help me get thru the days, the days of questioning, wondering, anger.  Give me days with happiness and peace of mind.  I love you, Kamdyn.  I love you , Daddy!  Someday we will be together again.  Our family cicle was broken but will be linked again.  I miss you both so much. Close

Kamdyn / Aunt BB (Aunt)

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Kamdyn was born June 13, 2004. He weighed 6 pounds 9 ounces. With dark hair and dark eyes, tiny feet and a funny shaped head, he stole all of our hearts. As a premature baby boy Kamdyn could smile and light up the world.

As Kamdyns Aunt BB I am proud to say he changed my life. He has taught me so much, just with the two years of life that he had. His pitch black eyes could steal my heart in a second. And one quick glimpse of his smile stopped everything.

Kamdyn means the world to me. He was my best friend and the first baby I loved. All the memories I have with Kamdyn are cherished, and will be forever. I am so glad Kamdyn and I were as close together as we were.

Watching Kamdyn grow into the amazing kid he was, was an adventure I will never forget. I remember thinking of him when he got older, and always wondering what he would look like, act like, enjoy doing and seeing us together in the future. I always thought it would be funny to tell him I was born in the 1900's and wonder what his reaction would be.

Although I'll never know when the first time to tie his shoe will be, the first tooth he looses, the first time he goes to school, the first crush, the first time he goes to the pricipals office, the first baseball game, the first car he gets, the first time he falls in love, or the first time him and his mom get in a fight and he needs a place to stay for the night. I did know Kamdyn. I saw the first tear, the first smile, the first laugh, the first hug and kiss. I saw Kamdyn sit on the potty, play baseball and ping pong, talk, laugh and sing. Im the one who taught him to pick his nose :) The happiest memories I have are spent with Kamdyn.

July 12th, 2006 will always be the worst day of my life. That is the day my best friend passed away. Thoughts of that day will never go away. They play over and over in my mind each day. The tears I cried and the screams of help did nothing. They realived no pain, they healed no wounds. The thoughts of "why?" still have not been answered.

Missing Kamdyn is the hardest thing I have been through. His smile brought so much joy into my life. Wanting to hold him, give him a hug, tell him I love him one more time will always be on my mind. There are still times when I think about that last "bye aunt bb" the night before. The hug, kiss and the wave bye. It replays in my mind all the time.

There is no doubt in my mind Kamdyn was happy. He knew who his family was, he knew the ones who loved him and he definately knew who took care of him.

Kamdyn is the greatest thing that has happened to me. Although July 12th was the worst day of my life, I am so glad it was the greatest for Kamdyn. He beat me to the greatest place possible. He beat me to the place with endless love and happiness. Kamdyn is so happy right now I cant even imagine. Hes singing with God and playing with Jesus. Janine is taking care of him as well as my Grandpas are.

Right now Kamdyn is sittin on Gods lap, catching all the tears we cry. Hes smiling down on us with his endless love.

I cant wait to see him again. He still means the world to me. I will do anything and everything I can, just to be with him again. And knowing hes in Heaven, means I have to be there too. Two years wasnt enough time spent with him, I want to spend eternity.

I know when its my turn, I will go, and when I do, dont cry for me. Dont worry, dont be sad. Just think of me with Kamdyn. Think of us together again. When I die, I will be sitting with Jesus, Kamdyn and Janine, watching over the ones we love. And when this happens, I'll be watching over you. Because I love you, and I will see you again.

Thank you to my friends who have been there for me. I have really come to find who my true friends are. I appreciate everything you have done for me and my family. I do have to say though, without God, I couldnt have made it this far. Its God who has given me the strenght to live each day to the fullest. Its God who has given me life to live. And I know when God thinks it is time for me to see Kamdyn again, I will.

So until that day comes, pray for me. And pray for my family. That truely is the greatest thing anyone could do.

Thanks for reading this all. And I'll see you around.

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Kamdyn / Tenecia (Friend)
Kamdyn,
I hope you are having fun in heaven with all of the other angels that love you as much as you are loved here on earth. My heart still aches knowing you have moved onto the next life at such as young age.  As I look at all of the photos of you I can't help but smile with the tears.  You were so full of love & happiness!  I missed you Halloween night.  Remember all of the fun you had last year at the church?  It was a little overwhelming, huh?  We didn't go there this year, but as we headed to Lee's Summit and back home, I took a look at the church and thought about you. I began to wonder what your Meme would have had you dressed in this year.  Hard telling, huh? :)  She had so much fun with you, but you know that.  Kamdyn, I pray all of the time that your Mommy, Aunt BB & Meme will be able to cope with the great loss they have endured.  You meant so much to all of your family.  None of their lives will ever be the same.  They have experienced the most painful and most difficult loss to cope with. I know with their strength, each others strength, & you and Jesus watching over them...they will be okay.  I know it will take lots of time, but one day...  
I regret everyday that I didn't take the time to get you & Maddix together at Meme's in the last year of your life.  I am thankful for the times we did get to see you at the beauty shop.  You were growing up so fast, and into a handsome little man.  We always think there is a tomorrow, we get caught up in the things we think we have to do.  Then one day we are left with regret.  I am greatful for the time we did have with you, and that Maddix knows who "Kamdyn" is when we speak of you.  You were her 1st friend, and I will spend the rest of her younger years keeping you in her memory and heart so that she never forgets you. Kayla & Kelcie miss you!  You are one SPECIAL little guy!  XOXOX Close

Halloween is over!  / MeMe (Grandma)

Bubby,
It was really hard!  All I could think about today and tonight was the fun we had last year.  Taking you trick or treating in Lone Jack and then to Pauline's house where you were attacked by Sugar.  Then off to the church in Strasburg.  There you played lots of games and you ate so much chocolate that you made yourself sick.  I know that Pauline was at home thinking of when you were there too, but I couldn't call her because I knew that I would just break down into tears.  And then she would do the same.  I didn't even want to see any trick or treaters.  I knew what I would do if I did.  Papa and I went to eat in Lee's Summit.  I did fine until this dad carring is little boy dressed as Barney asleep on his shoulders walked by me and then all I could do was to think of you with tears pouring down my cheeks and into my food!  The thoughts of what would you have dressed up has....where would we go this year....would Sugar attack you no you would have been big enough to tell him NO!....just all the fun little boys and girls are suppose to have on Halloween and the enjoyment we are suppose to have watching our little ones...instead today October 31, 2006 you get your courtersy marker at the cemetary delieved with K. Caton on it!  I was there twice today.  I couldn't help it.  I miss you and love you so much.  One day and not to soon enough I will be with you and hold you in my arms again....My little baby, my pride and joy, give Grandpa Shorty a hug and kiss....God please keep my angel safe!  Kamdyn, Meme loves you!  Please give Aunt BB the peace she needs to heal.  I love her and Kindra and don't want anything to happen to them, my world would be darker than it is now and I don't think I could cope with that at all.  Be with us God and make us all stronger and give us peace....I love you.  Meme

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An Angel is Watching Over You  / Meme (Grandmother)

An Angel is Watching Over You

We all have angels looking over us,
no matter how young or old we might be.
So the next time you are feeling a little blue,
Maybe a penny you find laying on the ground,
Was tossed down from heaven by an angel,
Just for you . . .

© Copyright 2000
* Ziplo *

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Memories / Mary (Friend)
I have memories in my pocket.
They rattle among the change.

My memories of you are treasures I carry wherever I go.

They are stored in bits and pieces,  parts of a beautiful whole.
They give me comfort when I think I am alone.

Yes, I have memories in my pocket, like so much other stuff I keep there.

But of all the treasures I have, it's the memories of you that are the most precious.
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Kamdyn We Love and Miss You  / Pauline Moyer (Family friend )
Kamdym,  You are soo cute on your mimi size motorcycle with your cute little dew rag.  I really enjoy riding our motorcyle with your meme and papa.  You are a precious gift from heaven and it breaks my heart that your life was cut to short .  I have young grandchildren myself and I love them to pieces.  I say a prayer for you and your family alot.  I love your meme alot and admire her strength.  Life is unfair and God's plan is not for us to understand which is hard to accept.  I know you are in a better place and we will all see you again some day.  Until then, rest in peace and take care of your family precious little angel. Close

Kamdyn and MeMe  / Donna Williams (Caring friend of family )
There is no comforting words for a family when a loved ones dies and especially one who hasn't been with us very long.  My belief is that Kamdyn was so good and so pure and he made good choices and so therefore went back to live with our Father in Heaven and did not have to endure the trials and tribulations of life here on earth.  It is hard to understand because we want him with us.

The thing that I remember and find so dear (and I didn't even see it happen, but can just visualize it) was when Kathy was keeping Kamdyn after her surgery and I was concerned that she was doing too much and she said "Oh, I just tell Kamdyn to go get a diaper for MeMe and he does and then he lays down for me to change him."  I can still se him doing just that and "helping" his MeMe.

His memory will never die.  He is in all our hearts.

Love

Donna



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Bad Day  / MeMe (Grandma)
Kamdyn,
Momma, Billie and MeMe had a bad day today.  We all miss you so much.  I try to hold back the tears but it just doesn't happen.  Our life here on earth is just not the same with out you.  You brought so much happiness to each of us.  You gave us something to look forward to each and everyday.  The new things you were learning and doing and the words you were starting to say, growing and changing each and eveyday.....laughing and  making us laugh, making us feel so proud of you, just the excitement of you being around....it was a wonderful feeling and there's nothing like being a grandma and to have that feeling and then to have it taken away I just can't explain it.....I will never ever forget the feeling that you gave me when I would hold you so close to my heart and rock you and sing us both to sleep...I miss you so ....I MISS YOU SO....Love you MEME and so does your Momma and Aunt BB!  Close

I miss you  / MeMe (Grandmother)

Kamdyn, I went shopping today for a baby gift and I just couldn't even walk into the department.  I had tears in my eyes before for I even walked into the store just knowing what I went in there to do.  I don't want to be like this but I just can't help it.  I think of you all the time.  All the places we went together and all the things that we did.  I still hear your voice calling me by my name "MEME".  I look at  your pictures and it saddens my heart.  I found another marble under the sofa that you left for me.  I added it to your collection, little stinker!  Me and your MOMMA had a good visit on Monday.  Give her a kiss for me while she's sleeping.  Watch over her and be with her.  She misses you so much.  We all do.  I love you sweetie I will see you in my dreams.  I miss you so much.  Night Night

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God's Promise  / Mary Ham (Friend)
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Rest in peace little buddy..  / David Justus

Kamdyn I never really personally knew you, but I wanted to let you know that i'll be missing you. Hope your doing great in the next life.

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MeMe's Little ANGEL  / MeMe's
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Mommy moved into her new apartment today.....  / MeMe (grandmother)
Mommy moved into her new apartment tonight...it was so hard Bubby because you were supposed to be there too.  It was so hard on everyone...seeing your little toys and your little clothes...there was just a big void there and it's not right....many tears were shed...looking at your clothes and remembering where they came from and where you wore them last...the ones you had your pictures taken in and the ones you never got to wear...just seeing the sofa brought tears to my eyes...I remember all the times I came to your house and watched you while mommy was at school...the naps that we took while you laid snuggled against me while you slept and I held you so close...getting up and eating ice cream....playing your favorite games on the computer....reading books...walking to the store....playing with your balls....Kamdyn I miss you so and love you so much....If only we had one more day together....Bubby my heart aches so you don't know...please give your mommy and kiss and aunt bb one too, while they are sleeping tonight....give grandpa shorty a hug for me too....i love you, meme.  xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxox Close

one of gods children  / Cookie Graham (heartfelt reader )

dear kathy & family, so very sorry for your loss. life and death teachs us to be better people, better to ourselfs, hopefully we learn from that. kamdyn was and still is a beautifull little boy, his job here was to give love to everyone around him, your little angel buddy has done his work here on earth. love to your family and stay strong, god will see you though. with loveing thoughts cookie,

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Thank you Tenica, Connie and Janet  / MeMe (Grandmother)
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Little Kamdyn  / Tenecia Clause (Friend)

Kamdyn,
Fly high but gracefully!  You are a VERY IMPORTANT "Angel"!  When it is dark and quiet here on earth, be sure to swoop down and give your Mama, Dada, MeMe & Papa(s) kisses while they are sleeping.  They miss you soooo much & their hearts are broken.  I know you will help them put their hearts together again, it will take lots of time, but I know you can do it!  You won't be able to find all of the pieces, but there will be enough found to at least ease the pain. You touched so many peoples hearts, whether you came in direct contact with them or not. I know am an not alone in saying how much I miss yours & MeMe's emails with all of the great photos from your outings together. Maddix and I had a talk about where you are now.  I know she is too young to fully understand, but one day she will. We look at your pictures often and smile & laugh together, I know this is what you would want. I have to say "good-bye" for now. You be a good little angel and help Jesus take care of the younger ones.  Miss you bunches Kamdyn! 

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I remember....  / Constance Davis (friend)
I remember so many times seeing Kamdyn at the shop...one time in particular....he was in diapers, one sock on and the other stuck behind a box somewhere.  Kamdyn was in the climbing mode...and kept climbing (I suspected he was working his way up to the countertop...but he'd never admit to it) into a box of "collectible" Matchbox cars (his favorite was a purple truck he kept pulling up out of the bazillion little cars in that box).  Supposedly Memaw was going to sell those cars in such pristine condition for a good penny.  But our little Kamdyn just had too much fun climbing in and out of that box to let that happen.  I MISS YOU KAMDYN.  Your picture is on the fridge with my kids' ... and it reminds me every day of your sweet smile and voice.  You'll be in my heart as long as it beats. Close

ME ME'S ANGELS  / Janet Berry (3rd cousin )
Kamdyn we miss you!  Your smile touched so many hearts and I am glad I got to know you!  I know your with PaPa Shorty, now!  Your Me Me was very special to him!  I remember lots of good times me and your me me had when we were little in KY.  Your Pa PA Shorty was my favorite Uncle!  I know he is taking real good care of you but watch out when it comes time to lose a TOOTH, he will chase you with his wire pliers and pull that tooth but it will be okay, he pulled mine once and after it was over it was okay!  I know you will be spending lots of time with your great great Pa JOhn Allen and Ma Velda, too, WATCH OUT for George the goose, he will bite your ankles!  Tell them all HI for US and we will all meet again real soon!
Tell Pa Pa Shorty I will watch out and be here forever for ME ME, I still LOVE her as much as I did when we were young, laughing and giggling the night away that Mary always separated us into different beds but thats okay now we can giggle as much as we want but it is hard for Me Me now with both you and Pa pa in Heaven but I know you both are watching over her!!  I LOVE YOU, KAMDYN !!!  lOVE ALWAYS, JANET YOUR 3RD COUSIN Close